Where's my Atok?

i miss you so much! It's been nearly 2 months and i still cannot accept the fact that i will never be able to see you again. i know im not suppose to be this way but i just cannot help thinking about it. Why did you have tto go? You did not even see me in my graduation gown. i want you to say that you are proud of your granddaughter and your granddaughter did a good job. why didn't you wake up even just a little while?
It's going to be raya this weekend. It's the first without you. I cannot imagine how it is going to be.