it is really not easy to pretend everything's alright when it is not. seeing nenek's tears when we visit you at the hospital is really heartbreaking. seeing you lying unconscious on the hospital bed is worst. i tried to be strong.. i tried to hide the tears.. but it just keeps falling. how can this happen? when nenek told me "dugaan ni paling berat sekali nenek nak pikul. nenek tk sanggup lagi dah" i know i had to be even stronger.
im tired. im sick. im exhausted. it's hard having to do so many things at one time. when will all this end? when will i be able to see u smile again? when will i get to have little talks with you? when will i be able to ask you for advices again? you have to at least see me graduate from ITE!
