Rest Day.

Took time-off today cause this girl's gotta slow down and get some rest! Work has been crazy and I'm on the verge of breaking down. Plus, this cramps are crazy. 

Been working for 15hrs straight for the past 2 days, running here and there for the Event. On top of that, the managers have been pressuring me with back to back events planning with datelines so close to each other. Planning includes, coming up with the event, proposals, posters and marketing which is mostly done by my Hali cause I suck at marketing. Having new managers made me feel more stressed and pressured I think. I've always disliked being asked and talking about work after hours cause hello, it's after working hours. I didn't sign a contract that says I'm working 24 hours a day. I need some work-life balance but the past few weeks, it's been 24 hours work. Even on off days. No, I'm not complaining about coming back to work for Pool Walk/Resistance band. I love going to work for them cause the ballerinas and ballerinos, as we call them, never fails to brighten up my day. 

I don't consider today a productive off day. Not really a well-rested one either but it's good to have days like this i suppose. All I did today was grocery shopping, eat, iron work uniform (see work again!), eat, watch some online shows as destress, eat, fell asleep, blog and I'm gonna cook for dinner after I finish this blog. And on top of it all, I really wish Love's with me. 

I blame this unproductive day on my cramps. Period. 

Growing up is really crazy. No joke. 

All Grown Up.

"What was I thinking?" That kept echoing in my head as I read my posts from the very start of this blog. 2009, the year I started this blig, also the year I was sitting for my O'Levels. When I was at a young age of 16. 

8 years later, I'm back in this blog. And I'm planning to continue from here. I can't promise I'll update very regularly but I'll be back often enough so that when I come across this blog again in 5 or even 10 years time, I'll have more to look back on and see my progress throughout the years.

Well, for a start, here's an update about myself. I'm 23 this year. I graduated from polytechnic in May last year and I've just started full time since May this year. I'm currently working as a Guest Officer with a semi-government company. How I got this job? I was an intern at another centre in 2014 for my polytechnic course. Then I continued as a part timer and ended up taking full-time here. I became complacent and attached to the people here. Here is also the place where I fell in love with my partner. 

I'm still getting used to adulthood. There are so many things to learn from. I know things comes naturally but sometimes it gets a little too difficult for me. 

There are a lot more things that I want to update about but due to time constraint, I'll update again soon! Just got back from work and it's time for bed. 

Goodnight.

Esteem.

SELF-ESTEEM
: confidence in one's own worth or abilities; self-respect."assertiveness training for those with low self-esteem"synonyms:self-respect, self-regard, pride in oneself/one's abilities, faith in oneself, pride, dignity,morale, self-confidence, confidence, self-assurance, assurance; 

A weakness of mine. I hate it sometimes. It makes me feel silly. It makes me scared.

It is slowly turning into a fear. A fear that's pulling me away from everyone. Even the one i love.