What is Love?
There are many different kinds of love. Love for something, love for an animal, love for doing things, love for someone.
How do you differentiate the kind of love?
How do you differentiate loving someone and simply liking someone?
What if, you love someone but the person doesn't have the same feelings for you?
How sure are you that your other half loves you as much as you do?
When I fall in love, I fall hard. Everything will be about the person. Will he like it if i do this? Will he be okay if i do that? I'll share everything, even things I don't want to share initially, even things that he might think is not important but I tell him anyways. I don't hide things, except sometimes I'll take a while before telling him. Things like why I'm upset/angry at him. I'm scared that it would end up becoming an argument.
The past few days, issue on trust keeps popping up. It feels like he thinks I dont trust him. Why would i be with someone who I dont trust? True, I can't trust anyone 100%. After all the past relationships I had, I fear trusting people fully. Everyone said "you're the only one", everyone said "I have you, I dont need to find another one", some even said "I love you". Everyone left.
Call me old-fashioned but I take relationships seriously. If you keep telling people "no we're not together" and keep hiding that we're dating, how would that make me feel? And when I do say something, he keeps saying that I dont trust him.
Sometimes there are things that he do which makes me puzzled and I start questioning in my head. Why did he have to hide his phone away and text secretly? Wouldn't that make me more suspicious? Why can't he just do it openly? And when he keeps talking about his past girlfrieds, the things he did with them, how does that make me feel? How do i not feel like he have not gotten over them? How would i not be scared that if he meet them, things will happen again?
I'm always torn between sharing and not sharing my feelings. The fear of losing him scares me.
I am scared.
Trust.
Call me old-fashioned but I take relationships seriously. If you keep telling people "no we're not together" and keep hiding that we're dating, how would that make me feel? And when I do say something, he keeps saying that I dont trust him.
Sometimes there are things that he do which makes me puzzled and I start questioning in my head. Why did he have to hide his phone away and text secretly? Wouldn't that make me more suspicious? Why can't he just do it openly? And when he keeps talking about his past girlfrieds, the things he did with them, how does that make me feel? How do i not feel like he have not gotten over them? How would i not be scared that if he meet them, things will happen again?
I'm always torn between sharing and not sharing my feelings. The fear of losing him scares me.
I am scared.
Trust.
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