Alone.

These days, everything doesn't seem to feel right. Everyone takes it as I'm being extra sensitive, even my boyfriend, but what they don't know is how lonely I feel. I mean I'm thankful to have many people around me, but why do I still feel lonely? Why do I end up crying to myself feeling like shit? No one really understands. "She's just being sensitive" "She's having PMS" 

No. I'm not being sensitive, neither am I having pms. I'm lost in my own thoughts. I need to talk to someone without being thrown back questions like "Why must you do that?" "Why are you doing that to yourself?" "No need la do that". And I need people to stop telling me what to do. Let me live. 

The number of sleepless nights, the number of times I had to hold back, the number of times I ask myself "are you okay?". I'm tired of putting up a cheery fun. Yes, I don't have to pretend, but do anyone really care?